Aidpage

To the attention of:

Barack Obama, US President;
Brian Sandoval, Governor of Nevada;
US Senators from Nevada: Harry Reid, John Ensign;
US Representatives from Nevada: Dean Heller, Joseph J. Heck, Shelley Berkley;
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I don't know why I'm even doing this since i hate politics, don't much care for O'bama, or Senator Reid, or any politician to be honest.  But as I was finishing up my test for an online job I'm trying for, I came across Aidpage which I subscribe to.  I asked for their help a few years back, which nothing has come of it as yet.  I mean no answer.  Ask about a car, which I so desperately need, but that hasn't happened.  I'm disabled and the body is disintegrating more and more every day.  Busses and walking is hurting pretty much.  Then there is of course living arrangements.  Which I'm a month 1/2 behind on rent, cause 2 weeks ago I felt I was having a stroke at my job, ambulance was called and they rushed me in to the hospital.  My face sagged on one side, eye drooped, left arm and leg couldn't feel, left side of my tongue was numb.  But after 7 hours in the hospital, Dr diagnosis was looks like might be anxiety, didn't show on mri anything was wrong with the brain, so he sends me home with a peice of paper stating syncope, which doesn't mean diddly I come to find out.  My sis told me since she's a nurse that it meant pre-stroke, TIA.  But was told by another Dr, wasn't so.  So why did my face stay sagged down hours later, eye still drooped the next day?  Why couldn't I remember Friday at ALL?  Then there's the great case of Obama.  To not only take most of SS away, but not to let the people who have been pending (LIKE ME for 5 years), to not get it at all?  Really?  Are you kidding Me?  Seriously, he's going to see to it that while I've waited 5 years, buried my husband recently, who passed away at 53 years old, I still didn't even get any kind of widows disability fund yet, can't touch his SSD till I'm 60, I'm only 54, he was only 53, but I have to wait 6 more years.  Well guess what?  I'm going to be out in the street soon.  Hope Mr. Obama, the White House is quite comfortable and nice and big enough for you.  Cause facing homelessness at 54, disabled, a Christian widow with 3 pets, not alot of belongings since I lost my storage recently that held my husbands ashes and his hair, I'm so glad you and your adorable kids don't have to live like me.  It's pretty horrible to be alone at 54, and then to go homeless with no car, and there isn't even a shelter I can go into.  The shelter here they can't stand me, and it's just for 3 months, they hate my service dog, I'd have to lose both my cats, like I haven't lost enough the past 2 years?  If any of you anonymously would like at all to see me as a pathetic charitable cause, be my guest.  Cause I guess I am one and I haven't any pride left.  My rent is $801.00, my utility bill which I called into NV Energy, is $202.00, I lost out on food stamps, I keep getting turned down for disbility I'm on my 6th try right now with David Allen and Associates.  I'm quite ugly due to no teeth in my head, Voc Rehab is trying to get started after 2 years on getting me dentures.  I used to sing for aliving, I'm a voice teacher by trade, play 7 instruments, piano 49 years.  I just NEED help with rent, utility, and a car a used car, it could be a Flintstone Vehicle, I don't care just as long as it DROVE me from A to B.

I know no one will even care or even bother with this little letter.  And that's ok, cause GOD saw it and read it I'm sure.  And I know HE loves me.  Even if the Obamas and the Reids and what other politicians names there are out there don't.  It's ok!! I'm alright with that.

Thanks for reading

Crystal N. Geng Shaw

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The orisonsrogue 2 comments are posted wrong read the second 1 first it will make sense reading it that way. Thanks

Hi, haven't been on this site to blog or read comments from people, sorry about that, just been busy trying to not be homeless.  Have no phone, actually I do, verizon and a cricket, but have no money to get the cricket going or money to put on the prepaid verizon.  So I'm stuck.  I still need a car, more than ever now, since I plan to move out of this horrible state and go to live with my sis in NC, since my kids don't have anything to do with me and they live ten minutes away from me.  Go figure hugh?  Anyway, thanksgiving and xmas and NY I'm not looking forward to as I'll be alone all the holidays.  But with the job I just got a week ago, it'll

Honey I feel so bad for you but at present time I live in a tent, poor, no money don't even get food stamps.  I wish I had money to send you but I don't even have a dime to my name.  I'm looking for work tho I'm disabled, but have started yet again to file disability even tho I was waiting for 4 years and got turned down 4 times.  I'm 53, just lost my husband last year April 4th.  Its horrible being homeless but God will provide a way out he says in the bible.  I have my faith still, you must hold onto yours.

God Bless You and I'll keep praying for your circumstances please pray for mine, plus get a car and clear up my license problems.

Orion

Response to Starshine

Star, I thought besides playing games on a computer, that Online going and seeing someones website, and reading their needs desires, how they are, was a chance for others who are more fortunate to help the ones that aren't.  That thats what the internet was all about.  Am I wrong?  Tell me.  I don't want to look like an idiot out here expect to get a job, or to maybe get help with my rent, or whatever.  I just knew when you put yourself out here online, open up, explain whats happened in your world, your work, that people do have hearts, and they will respond in kind.  There are so many people in this country, in the world, that have millions they could donate, share.  Look at Sandra Bullock, movie star, she just up and gave 1Mill to Haiti.  That's so awsome of an actor to do that. 

That shows selflessness.  That just goes to show you also that actors and actresses have that much money to where they can take 1 mill and just donate it.  If all the entertainers, actors, musicians that are millionaire to billionaires pooled their money together, do you know how much good could be done, feeding starving kids, homeless(that aren't homeless cause of addictions), people here in our country they could feed, clothe, get on their feet, buy people cars that need them.  There's so much.

Anyway, I'm going to be optomistic and less negative from now on about the internet and finding work.  I believe I will and I believe the Lord will show me his purpose in all these trials I'm going thru.  And if you ask him honey I bet he'd show you why you are also.  Do you read the Bible?  Church?  I never did ask you.

Anyhow God Bless You and keep you, if you need me to talk with or pray with or go nuts, I'm here, LuL

Orion

In response to Starshine

Thank you for that sweetie, they will.  Oh by the way, my animals are service animals, the kittens I plan on giving them away, but the others are mine.  I don't like to poor my woes out on here, I was just letting the site know so they could pray.  I'm not doing poor pity me here. 

So praying is a mighty tool God gives us to use, daily, sometimes hourly.  The people that stay home alot, disabled people, people who are deaf, all these people can very well if they have a computer and the internet a way of reaching the unsaved and ungodly by being online.  Chat rooms, games they like to talk thru games, emails, letters, penpal to a prisoner in prison, etc.

I'm sorry Star, Gods been doing that to me tonight.  He just took over writing, and he's stopped.  So God Bless again

Orion

In response to starshine,

Thanks, God Bless

Orion

I vote for you for a car sweetheart.  I pray each night for myself for a car to, as I'm disabled.  But you and your little one, you need it most.  I know how It was without a car and still do, but with a child, its a nightmare without one.  God Bless you little one.  Don't despair.  He's there, he hears you and cares.  Oh another song you could ad to your list is one I used to sing.  (I used to sing prof. and teach voice)  The song is by Sandy Patti, called In Heavens Eyes.  You'll love it.

I'm having it quite rough myself, but I won't bore you with mine, you've got enough to handle right now.  You take care, I'll pray and think of you and carry you with me, God Bless

Orionsrogue

Hey Georgia (Thanks Starshine),

You're an inspiration.  And the Mission is Gods way of helping the hungry, and thirsty, as he says in he bible come to me I will give you food, I am the living water, all you who are heavey laden(burdened) and I will give you rest.

Where else but the mission can you lay your head, get food, keep warm, even if its for a night.  Jesus had no real home, he was pretty much hoomeless yes because he wanted to be so he could reach people.  Can't reach people and talk about the Lord with them and how salvation becomes real in your life, if you're locked away behind doors, or just sitting at home watching TV.  That's not doing Gods work.  He needs soldiers and people who have strong faith.  The time is now, don't waste anymore time with frivolous stuff.  Devote your time and yourself to helping others, doing for others, loving others as you do yourself.

Georgia, I've come to a place in my life where I'm being tested. this I know for sure.  I met and married my second husband at a mission.  Reno Sparks Gospel Mission.  My husband used to cook and preach for the homeless. I sang and gave witness, fed the homeless prayer with them.  Comforted them.  I lost my husband 10 months ago, and poor man never had the strength to go to see about a will or insurance to leave me if the worst happened.  Well the worst happened, and now the other worst is going on.  I don't know when I'm going to be put in the street with all my animals, my belongings.  I'm 53, disabled, no car, no money, no food.  People can't just start to send me food, cause I could be on the street tomorrow, I just don't know.  I was on a program thru this Health Agency, Institute, for 2 years, over 2 years.  They pay your rent, 118 on utilities 20 phone.  Give you personal money $164.00 a month (which paid my rent on my computer and got me clearwire internet provider).  Jan 7th I walked into go to group, and my counselor pulled me in and gave me a 30 days notice.  To get off program, vacate apartment.  Thats it you're done.  Its done.  I just say there crying, begging.  Where am I to go I asked?  They said," We'll help you we won't leave you just like that."  But they did just do that.  They've done nothing, no phone call, no help, they stopped the checks so I have no way of paying my 2 bills, computer and internet, and  no food.  I have no car, no bus pass thats the other bill they gave.  A 31 day bus pass so I could get around to Dr's appointments, groups, etc.  I'm stranded ultimately, again.  It feels like how when I used to be in a horrible lifestyle that God pulled me out of, it feels like that in a way, but this time, its not due to anything I did, its due to this Agency not having the funding anymore as they used to.  They used as an excuse me not going to a few group sessions.  When that's not accurate.  I loved the sessions and put myself in it.  They didn't.

So enough of sadness, my God is mightier than an Institute, he's wiser and swifter and sharper than any 2 edged sword.  If he sees my need, I pray on this need, and it meets with what he wants in my life, then, I know somehow food, bills, rent, transportation, will all be met.  That movie, Pay It Forward.  Its too bad people, we people, can't do that for one another.  To help, especially people who have lots of money, go ahead  and give the family car thats used, beat up, or the not so used, whatever to someone who desperately needs it.  Lets save that $50.00 instead of blowing it on gambling, lets get online and see who needs money. 

You know what I'm saying.  There is so many people here in town, and other states, countries who need so much.  I'm not alone, and thats why I'm no longer asking for help for me.  Just prayers.  I need too much myself, but I was told 4 weeks ago by God.

"Be Still and Know That I Am GOD!!!!  I was to wait and thats what I've been doing waiting and wondering but no real answer yet.  Accept God wrote most of this letter.  As I zoned off he took over.  I guess he wanted people to know some things.

Anyway thank you and God Bless You Starshine, and you Georgia, or whatever your name is.  I feel for those people right now so bad and for Haiti, that I can't really think about my own pain or near homeless state.  I just think about them and how they're suffering.  How the missionary thats over there is suffering just so she could try to help some kids, she was thrown in jail.  Its on the internet.  Look it up and start praying for this woman.  Pray for all the people that has messages on here.  That's partially what these sites are for.  Encouragement, help, to ease someones heart, to give if you have it to give what the person needs.  God Bless

Orionsrogue

Shana first off send me a pic of you, if you have a webcam, thats even better, so at least I know who I'm talking to.  I'm Orion, Im a christian 53 yr old woman who is a new widow of 8 months.  I'm lonely, I have 2 kids, not lonely in the respect of no one likes me, I'm lonely because for almost 2 months Gods had me alone cut off from everybody even church, to teach and train me about some things  The reason I'm talking to you sweetie, is I was on a program for 2 yrs thru NMHI, Nevada mental health, and they just cut me off.  They were paying my rent, util, ph giving me an allowance of $164.00 not alot but it was enough to pay rent for my computer and the internet.  They gave me the 30 days notice Jan 7th, whats today?  Right Jan 28.  So if you and I well first I got to know where are you located first off?  If you're not in Reno, then hey my plans no good.  Let me know where you're at sweetie, cause if you are, I have a 1 bedroom, but we'd have to do something fast thinking to come up with $645 for rent.  My Utilities is probably due to, but I think I can stall them, ask for some time.  So tell me what you think ok?  I've never quiite offered something like this, but its not all unselfish, I need help to.  And you're getting a job, and I want a job online, yours is outside, if I stayed in my apartment worked online, I could also care for the kids as long as they're not total terrors from another planet. 

So let me know God Bless

Orion  Oh IM me to if you'd like orionsrogue is my IM

Sweetheart if I had the money I'd give it to you not loan it to you in a heartbeat.  Unfortunately my life could be better also, but I have God to help me make it thru these times.  And better yet he's putting me thru this one himself, so that I can gain strength, rely totally on him, and wait for him to answer me, as he says "Be Still And Know That I Am GOD!"  So I'm being still, I'm waiting, I still cry, I still do my pityparty thing, and thats ok.  Cause I'm not Jesus.  We are to emulate him though, try to be like him courageous thru turmoil, hospitable when sick or cranky, we are to love our neighbors as ourselves because Christ loved us.  Its hard, I'm not going to say this is easy none of it is.  God didn't promise a path of flowers in a garden.  We got the thornbushes, crevices, rocks, and deep valleys instead.  This helps us learn and grow.  Though you may not feel that way, you don't, you will some day see the reasoning behind what God puts you thru or lets happen to you.  If you're not a christian ShyShy, then he might be reaching out to you to turn you to him, where you need him, and you call out, repent of your sins, as him into your heart and learn and know what its like to be a child of the King!

ShyShy, if you only knew what I'm facing right now, I should be freaking out, running around asking anyone please help me not get put in the street with my pets and my stuff.  But last night in my prayertiime with God, I just had an overwhelming feeling of what Jesus went thru, sometimes no food, remember 40 days and nights with Satan? No food or drink, nothing.  He had no real place to lay his head, as he was always on the move or hiding out.  I have to look and remember that and now when I do, my life seems so insignificant to his.  Then he was crucified, spit on, beaten, whipped, made fun of and half naked on a big peice of wood, nailed to it right thru my skin. 

So, sit back my darlin, and get on your knees.  Pray to the savior, who CAN help you thru this, and if he so desires, will pull you out of this.  I'll start praying for you and also Shy I'm going to start a study online, if I can hold onto my computer and internet that is, the study will be for women, men, to be able to share, cry, hurt, discuss and find solutions for whats going on each of our lives.  Yes, each person gets to suggest, help the other out.  Money, or clothing, or just to talk, or ideas, suggestions, anything can be said in the talk, discussion.  Have a pad and paper cause there might be profound statements made and we want to write them down, or an idea.  This whole study came to me during my time w/God last night.  On top of everything else I'm going thru, I just quit smoking with the Chantix program, yes it works really well.

Well anyway I've talked way too much, I just wanted you to know you have a friend out here if nothing else IM me orionsrogue if you truly are going nuts, don't go nuts just get on the computer, and I'll help you down off the ceiling,  God Bless you sweetie,

Orion

Gee I don't mean to make you upset Rose, I don't know how it goes that well yet, this blog, and post and the whole thing.  I'm not as quick these days as I used to be.  I've got too much stress on me right now.  I'm sorry I bothered you with this, I really didn't mean to get you upset especially when I've never met you nor you me.

I'm trying to make friends online not push them to upsetness.  Forgive.

I won't do it again, I'll look and read the comment first better before responding ok?

Orion

Well Rose this is all good and great, but what is the Address of this great funding you're speaking about?  Please email me the add ASAP and I have applied to alot of grant places online, and they'll call me, and at the end of the whole conversation they want some type of payment.  I don't have any money, so if you're saying the grant places are great, but they all pay.  So why are they so great if they charge for something thats going to be given for free?

Orion